To my new followers..
Yesterday my daughter became one month old. I still can’t believe that I’m holding my own daughter in my arms right now.
Here is our story - Difficult roads leads to beautiful destinations ..
It took us 5 years to achieve our dream, to become parents. We never lost hope but it’s been very hard and a roller coaster. To cry and pray everyday for a child is not easy. I always had a smile on my face but no one would ever understand how broken I actually was.
All started when we lost our baby 2 days before Christmas in 2013. I got extrauterine pregnancy/ectopic pregnancy. I even lost my other Fallopian tube, but the doctors said that we could still get pregnant with the other fallopian.
When nothing happened after one year, we did two inseminations in the end of 2014 without any luck. The doctors told us to try with IVF, so in the beginning of 2015 we started with IVF treatments. We were so sure that IVF would help us already on the first try but nope.. We tried again and again and it ended up with 4 IVF treatments without any result. We got no eggs to the freezer, so we did the whole procedure with injections and stuff all over again... People who have went through a IVF treatment know how hard it is. It takes so much both mentally and physically.
After the 4th IVF, doctors started to guess that my eggs were not of good quality but we should still try again. We took a break during summer and after summer in 2015 I got sick.
I got diagnosed by Granulomatosis with polyangiitis (GPA), formerly known as Wegener's Granulomatosis, is a long-term systemic disorder. It is a form of vasculitis (inflammation of blood vessels) that affects many organs but most commonly affects the upper respiratory tract, lungs and the kidneys.
Damage to the heart, lungs and kidneys can be fatal.
I got treated with high dose steroids and immunosuppressive chemo and a lot of other medications.
I got so sick that I even couldn’t get out of my own bed so my husband had to take me to bathroom.. This disease came so unexpectedly. I got very sick and got a very tuff treatment. Doctors said that we needed to take at least one year break from trying to get pregnant because I was too sick and needed also to wait for another year because I got chemo (cellgifter) and that could also affect the baby. I got depressed and exhausted...
When I finally was feeling better and another one year passed we started with IVF again during 2017.
We failed another 2 IVF teamtments and I was started to loosing hope. Doctors suggested us to get help with egg donation, adoption and gave us some other options too. That would take more years... Meanwhile everyone was getting their first or second child we were in the middle of it all and tried to have smile on our faces. Family and friends were asking how everything was going and actually our world started to fall apart. The things they used to say was don’t stress about that or let it take it own time ...
The longing for a child was really taking me down. On Instagram, Facebook or other social media’s, people who didn’t knew this was happening to us everything seemed fine. They all always thought that we were living a luxury life were we were a happy couple.
We had enough after a time and I started to investigate and google like a crazy person that we should do something about this. I could never wait for another year to get an egg donation and even don’t know if it would work out...
I started to google about different options and finally I found a forum were people where getting help In Greece.
People from Sweden went to Greece for help and their was this famous doctor who helped childless families. We took a chance, contacted him and went to Greece. He took many tests and was so sure that I will get pregnant within six months on a natural way if i followed his plan. He sent my results to a lab in Chigaco, US and told me that he haven’t seen so high values before but I should not worry because he will help me out. In order for successful implantation of the embryo and subsequent pregnancy, the environment within the female reproductive system needs to be in optimal condition. So firstly he needed to calm my body with some medication and than start with the plan. This method is called immunesupport treatment were you get blood thinners, infusions and steroids..
We took this chance and gave this a last chance before adoption.
6 months after I got pregnant with my daughter Anaya (God’s wish)
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I started my blog when I got sick, you can follow my whole journey from the beginning to her birth.
Life is full of surprises. We must learn that we should never give up or loose hope.
Don’t forget that I’m not looking for any sympathy. I want to inspire people who has it difficult.
I’m keeping up with the blog now, when Anaya is born. We will still focus on our daily life and health. Blog is in Swedish but i will start to write in English very soon.
Love! ❤️